So like, I feel like if I'd been through that, I'd be more likely to believe in God or... something. Do you believe in anything at all?

Um, so like, the constellations, I don't believe there's a whale out there, but I, uh, believe the stars exist and that people put the whale up there. Like, I dunno, we're good at drawing lines through the space between stars. Like we're pattern finders, and we'll find patterns, and we like really put our hearts and minds into it even if we don't mean to. So I believe in a universe that doesn't care and people who do.

Pattern finders. I feel like a lot of people don't believe they found God, but like, God found them. Like when they were having bad times like you did.

God never did. I was completely alone in the pantry, but a few years later, Gregg did. So like, the stars can stay up there and not give a shit about us, but this whale is pretty cool.

night in the woods

cultures of domination rely on the cultivation of fear as a way to ensure obedience. In our society we make much of love and say little about fear. Yet we are all terribly afraid most of the time. As a culture we are obsessed with the notion of safety. Yet we do not question why we live in states of extreme anxiety and dread. Fear is the primary force upholding systems of domination. It promotes the desire for separation, the desire not to be known.

When we are taught that safety always lies in sameness, then difference, of any kind, will appear as a threat. When we choose to love we choose to move against fear - against alienation and separation. The choice to love is the choice to connect - to find ourselves in the other.

bell hooks, All About Love

You tell me it's a cruel world and we're all running around in circles. I know that.
I've been on this earth just as many days as you.

When I choose to see the good side of things, I'm not being naive. It's strategic and necessary. It's how I've learned to survive through everything.

The only thing I do know is that we have to be kind. Please, be kind. Especially when we don't know what's going on.

I know you see yourself as a fighter. Well, I see myself as one too. This is how I fight.

everything everywhere all at once

last night,
a star fell into the fish tank & it colored my world.
if i made a wish, would it go away?
i'm scared to ask for too much.
"please, stay," i insisted.
it was gone by the morning.
& yet, my world stayed brighter in the light it left.thanks for stopping by, if only for a little.